Thoughts in my head

I often wake up feeling down, the house is a tip again. Why can’t they all tidy up after themselves? But im so down I can’t motivate myself to do any tidying so I’m living in the mess. We are always skint, we work to pay the bills. What is the point in this life? Can I leave? Should we move to another country? Maybe my children would be better off without me.
What the hell am I thinking of course they wouldn’t, pull yourself together. And then the thoughts start all over again. I try talking to a few friends but what can they do to help? They all have their own lives and their own problems to face. Snap yourself out of it, you are so lucky – i have a husband and 3 children and a great family and great friends. But what is the point when life is this shit. wait you only live once – enjoy life, go out for the day. Where – were skint?
We go to the park – the children fallout, i feel shit again.
And round and round it goes!!

If you are feeling like this, there is help out there!

If you haven’t already been to the doctor then make an appointment and ask what they can do to help. Sertraline has been the biggest help for me and I have also had Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT).

But I still think the best thing to do is talk to your family and friends, don’t feel ashamed as you have nothing to be ashamed of. We are stronger together! There is so much support around now, as Mental Health has come to the forefront of society. But even with all the support I know how you can still feel isolated from the rest of the world.

I am always here to listen to anyone who needs it. Either comment on my blog or contact me through the contact page.


Surely having a husband and 3 children means you can’t ever be lonely?

Motherhood is the most amazing, hardest and loneliest part of my life.
I was a stay at home mum for five years, also living 250 miles from my family and friends. I look back on it now and wish I had appreciated it more, children grow so fast and I should have took more time to appreciate every moment when they were little. But life and my own thoughts and feelings took over. I could not wait for them to go to bed so I had some peace and me time, and then when they were in bed I could not wait for them to wake up so I had some company and moments to make me smile.

Now I work part time, am a student at uni and look after my children with the help of my husband and my family and friends live 10 minutes away. So why do I still feel lonely?

I really try to pull myself out of feeling down and try to appreciate my children but it is so hard. Us mums/parents of any kind need to club together to support each other. Be open and honest about the brilliance but also the hardness of family life. Don’t shut your feelings down, let them out, share them.